I have a new novella, Seeing You, out now from MLR Press as part of the Studs & Spurs print anthology! I’m lucky enough to be included with three supremely talented authors: JL Langley, Kiernan Kelly, and Angela Fiddler. Yee-haw!
Blurb for Studs & Spurs
Saddles, spurs, Stetsons . . . and love? Sexy cowboys grab hold of more than a saddle in these entrancing stories from four talented authors of the genre. Kiernan Kelly takes us on an adventurous cattle drive to the Oregon Territory with a greenhorn and an old hand. Angela Fiddler’s retired rodeo men accept each other and the black riders. Two men overcome grief, rebuild a ranch and find love in Dakota Flint’s story. And JL Langley offers a light-hearted tale of a city boy and a rancher filled with love, laughter and a marriage of convenience?
Blurb for Seeing You
Everything changed for Dylan the night his brother, Simon, was killed in an accident. Unable to face the pain–or Simon’s partner, Wade–Dylan leaves life on the Lazy G ranch behind. Over a year later, Dylan gets a call saying he’s needed at home and he returns to find both the Lazy G and Wade in bad shape. Will Dylan and Wade be able to deal with their grief and rebuild the ranch? And will Wade see that sometimes you can find happiness again?
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Excerpt
“What the fuck are you doing?” I barely recognized my own voice.
He blinked water out of his eyes and stared dumbly at me before saying, “What?”
“I said, what the fuck are you doing out here? I know it might seem like a nice night for a walk to you, but I thought I might inform you that it’s pouring outside.”
Wade looked away, as if he was too tired to even look me in the face, and said, “Go back to bed, Dylan.” Then he turned back around to lean on the fence, dismissing me, and my anger turned to rage.
It felt like someone else moving after that. Someone else’s hand grabbing Wade’s shoulder to turn him around again, someone else’s arm that cocked back and let fly straight into Wade’s granite jaw, someone else that watched as Wade’s head snapped back from the force and he stumbled against the fence. Because surely it couldn’t have been me that touched Wade in anger.
But it was definitely me that went down, without a fence to catch me, when Wade’s fist connected to my own jaw. I was sure that would hurt later, but at the moment, I couldn’t feel anything except anger and relief that Wade was still fighting.
I scrambled back up out of the mud and then it was happening so fast, the adrenaline moving through my veins as we both grunted and swore and swung our limbs, that I wasn’t sure who was landing punches where. We were like one beast, ugly and flailing. I hadn’t brawled like this since Eddie Baron, one of the linebackers in high school, had called Simon a faggot when we were juniors.
The rain and mud were making things slippery, and then we were on the ground wrestling like a couple kids in the mud, both of us obviously no longer going for blood. Wade managed to roll me onto my back and straddle me, and I felt mud oozing around my head. I could barely see with the rain falling into my eyes.
It felt like the mud was seeping into my ears, which was just fucking nasty, and I stopped struggling for control and reached out, grabbed a handful of mud and aimed it for Wade’s face.
It landed around his left temple and I smashed it into his hair and ear as best I could. I started laughing when Wade stopped moving and just sat back, looking down at me as if I had suddenly turned into a purple dinosaur.
I laughed and laughed until I was scared I would never stop laughing, and all the while Wade looked down at me with his mouth hanging open in shock. Which just made me bellow more as he was catching mouthfuls of rainwater like that.
Just as Wade was starting to look really concerned, the laughter just dried up and I became aware that we were out in a thunderstorm and it was pouring, and I hadn’t bothered with a shirt. I wouldn’t be surprised if my nipples were little blue pebbles, and I grinned at the weird thought.
That must have been the final straw, because Wade grabbed my chin and forced me to meet his gaze. “Are you fucking crazy?”
I considered this. “Probably. But if I’m crazy for lying here in the mud and laughing in the rain, aren’t you crazy for watching me do it?”
Wade grinned and said, “Probably.” The grin caught me off guard. It had been so long since I had seen it, making him look unexpectedly boyish despite the years carved into his face. I looked at that grin and the momentarily happy look in his eyes, and I couldn’t breathe.
As if he was deflating, the look faded from his face, and he said, “Why did you hit me?”
“Because I couldn’t stand it one more minute. Not one more fucking second.”
“Stand what?”
“Watching you give up.”
“I have not.” But he said it quietly, and I knew he didn’t even believe himself.
“You have. What do you think Simon would say?” I winced as I said this, hating myself for it, and Wade looked like I had punched him again.
“I–”
“Simon died. Not you. I want you to stop acting like it was you that died on that highway.”
“How do you know it wasn’t?”
That physically hurt. “Because that’s bullshit. I watched my brother die in my arms, okay? I watched and for a while I wish I had too. You’re not the only one who lost something that day, and I’m sick of watching you wish you could join him when the rest of us are doing the best we can to pick up the pieces.”
Wade snarled back at me, “Why do you care now? You just left. Just packed your bags and left like I was nothing to you. Like this place was nothing to you.”
That left me momentarily speechless. “I…Wade.” I wasn’t sure what to say. I tried again. “I just…I was trying to adjust to a world without my brother in it, and every time I looked at you I kept waiting for you to get angry that I walked away from the crash and Simon didn’t. I just couldn’t stay for that.” I told myself that the burning in my eyes was from the mud and rain.
Wade looked shocked. “You thought that? I…never.” He scrubbed his hands over his face, not that it did any good. “Christ, I thought a million times that it shouldn’t have been Simon. But I never once thought it should have been you instead.”
I hoped Wade would think it was only rain leaking around my eyes. “I…thank you. Didn’t want to think of you hating me.”
“No.” Wade was looking down at me, and I was about to ask him to get off me because I could feel my teeth getting ready to chatter, when he let out this weird choking sound. Then he said, “What do you want from me, Dylan?”
July 16th, 2009 at 1:27 am
I can’t wait wait to read this. Will it be coming out in e-book also?
July 24th, 2009 at 2:19 pm
Hi Robin!
Thanks for asking. I’ve contracted my novella, Seeing You, through Samhain as a standalone ebook, and it should be out around Feb. 2010. Kiernan Kelly and Angela Fiddler released their stories as standalone ebooks through MLR Press, and I believe JL Langley is releasing hers through Samhain at some point.
Let me know if you have any other questions!